Theraputic rant

If you are expecting 'funny', dont read this. If you dont give a rats ass about my problems, dont read this. If you have ever done this to someone, bite me. You suck.
Basically I needed to vent and this is a hell of a lot cheaper than an actual therapist.

My recently ex-boyfriend and I have had a rocky 2 year relationship Most of those rocks were thrown by me. I admit this. I put him through hell. But I would like to think I also made him happy at times.
But never, NEVER, during the time we were together did I ever cheat on him or lead him to believe anything was fine when it wasn't.
After a wonderful xmas vacation we had together, we had a fight one weekend. He decided he wasnt happy with me. I am fine with that. (well not fine, but read on). But instead of being respectful (and after 2 years I thought that I would have deserved that), he decided to cheat on me, then dump me, then fuck a girl he works with the exact same night. Not 10 hours after we broke up.

Understandably, I have been devastated by this. I trusted, loved and respected him. I would never be so callous as to replace him with someone else so quickly.
Most of his stuff is still here. I have had several ideas offered to me about what to do with it.
-burn it and mail him the ashes (too cold to be outside for that and dont want the ticket for an unauthorized fire)
-mail all of his stuff to him COD (this one is the most promising but it requires ME topack all of it)
-pack all of his stuff and drive it to his work and dump it off (again, requires me to pack)
-have a yard sale (too damn cold! Why couldnt this have happened in aug?)
-keep it (what the hell do i want with his childhood memories?)

I have decided that since no one in this situation seems to care about respect, that I will be the better person here. I will nicely let him come and retrieve it.

I can only hope that some day he realizes how much he is losing by doing this. Unfortunately in this world, he probably won't.
I can only hope that she will realize that a relationship is not built on 'who wins'. It is just horrible that neither of them thought about the most hurt party in this :my son.
I am left to explain to him that the guy he thought was his best friend will not be in his life anymore.
I went from horrible depression to anger. I have realized that neither of these does me any good. I have accepted the situation and tried to forgive both of them. They do not realize that their actions have affected more than just them. There is a time to be selfish but there is also a time to be patient.
I am left to wonder about myself in this. A lot of soul searching has made me realize that I am the one who wrecked the relationship. But in my defense, I did the best I could at the time. At least I have the cojones to admit when i have done something wrong.
Stupid me, but i still love him. How dumbass does that make me?