potpourri

-still happy with the S-man. (Is that a good code for him? S-dawg? Prince-"finally realized how awesome I am and is building an ark in my honour"? Hows about just Sam. He shall henceforth be known as Sam, unless he does something that really pisses me off)
He went to the strippers again last night. Since he msn'd me at 130am, i can only assume he had a good time. Maybe he met some hot stripper and decided he wants her more and ditches me for a pair of DD's and a weave. I have no self esteem. Its sad really.

-cat is still weird. No dead animals yet. She has gotten back into her old habit of hiding things. She hid a certain something of mine that made me very cranky for a few days.

-had turkey dinner with Sam's family. They are the nicest looking family I have ever seen. Polite too. I felt uncomfortable and intrusive. But Sam did a good job of sticking by me and not letting me hide out. He kept introducing me as his 'friend'. He kept emphasizing that i was his 'friend'. At my age, the term girlfriend sounds really grade-9ish, but I didnt fancy the 'friend' title either. I am going to give this considerable thought and come up with a term that makes me happy. So far I have come up with Goddess. "Hi mom, this is M, my goddess"

-freaking cold now which makes my survery class a pain. We have to tromp around in a field for 3 hours. Did i mention my shoes are broken? If it is even slightly wet it goes into my feet and stays there all day.

- I now know 5 songs on the violin. I am learning at a fast rate, but my fingers arent strong enough to make it sound good.

-My super friend is expecting a baby in February and I cant wait. I am really excited for her. Mostly for me. I get to buy baby clothes again. On one hand baby clothes are really cute, on the other they are a little creepy. Being so small I feel like a giant. Like a friendly giant who makes me dolls sit in wee tiny rocking chairs while i play my recorder.